Monday, June 30, 2014

DESTINY OF A STRANGER

                                                         



  
“Coming ready or not”!
Hans could only vaguely hear the shout coming from his brother from the floor beneath him.
This was their usual game of hide-and-go-seek and Hans prided himself on always being able to find the best hiding place.
His two cousins were also playing and he saw them scuttling down the stairs, probably to hide behind the lounge couches and behind the thick luxurious burgundy velvet curtains.
Of course there was also the large kitchen where they could hide in the broom cupboard or even the strangely shaped cupboard beneath the stairs.
Well, John, he was sure would go downstairs first. His cousins had made enough noise about it.
Hans had crept quietly along the passage right towards the end where there were wooden stairs which led towards the attic. People hardly ever went to the attic mostly because there was nothing that was really needed there.
It was primarily a place to store things, a rather dark place, lighted, it seemed, only by a small round window which was even difficult to look out of if you were a child. If you did manage to put one box on top of another and stand on them you could look out on the vast estate, perhaps even to the actual fence and the wrought iron gates with its rather sleepy somewhat taciturn guard.
He did not have time to do that today but he was glad that the room was fairly bright.
He was sitting behind one of the boxes wondering in John would even come up there when he heard footsteps on the stairs. Quickly he leapt over some more boxes, climbed over and under a few more and found himself at the far end of the attic under the sloping roof. Here was a space to hide, even to lie down, and he did this, hoping he would not sneeze from the dust.
He heard his brother walk in, look around and then leave. As he did so he turned the key in the lock which nearly evoked a cry from Hans but at the same time he realised his hiding place was safe.
Thank goodness the sun shone brightly through the window.
He decided he would wait about 15 minutes and then bash on the door shouting to be let out.
He had not been in this part of the attic before. Probably no one had for many years.
Next to him was a battered cabin trunk, the kind which was used on the old Union Castle Shipping Lines. The box had a lock of it but in manoeuvring it a little he found it suddenly releasing itself in his hand.
He gasped as he saw some of the contents of the trunk. What were these things? Where did they come from?
He picked up a tiny book which was encased in a silver cover and opened it curiously. This was not German or French; in fact the letters were not the same, not like any letters he had seen. He picked up a small silver cup with a  small saucer to match. It, too, had there strange letters around it.
He felt further into the trunk. There was a candlestick and a place for eight candles, or perhaps even oil. And here was place for another one, slightly raised from the rest.
There things gave him a strange feeling of warmth but at the same time a feeling of dread and of fear and he shut the trunk and tried to relock it, and found himself moving far away from it. He would look at it some time later, perhaps when his brother was with him.
He got to the door realising he was very full of dust. Well, that couldn’t be helped. He was in the middle of a game, wasn’t he?
He was surprised that the light from the window was dimming and he wondered how long he had been investigating the mysterious trunk.
He got to the door and banged on it. It was opened by his very relieved brother.
“Hans, where did you go?”
“I was here, you locked me in”.
“Oh I am sorry. I did not see you”.
“The best hiding place” proclaimed Hans.
“Definitely the best hiding place,” agreed John.


DESTINY OF A STRANGER

Based on the Book:
 “STRANGER TO HER PEOPLE”
BY RUTH BENJAMIN
CIS  PUBLISHERS   1993  NEW YORK, LONDON, JERUSALEM
(Jenny Reynolds, a young South African convert to Judaism, was full of eager anticipation as she set out from Johannesburg on the "March of the Living" tour. Over the next few weeks, as part of an organized groups of thousands of holocaust survivors and their families, she would visit the scenes of the German destruction of European Jewry during the Second World War. It promised to be a profound intellectual and emotional experience, an experience that would be burned into her memory for the rest of her life. Her pilgrimage to the scenes of the holocaust does indeed become an experience that she would never forget, but in a very unexpected way. During an unscheduled overnight stopover in Switzerland, Jenny is shocked to discover that there may be a dark secret buried in her family's past) 


Copyright: Dr. Ruth  Benjamin  
(PhD Psychology) 2013
Available as an e-Book on Amazon Kindle
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This book is based on a book I wrote 20 years ago “Stranger to her People”

It is not a sequel in any way. It is, in itself, an entirely new book. The story is richer and deeper and concentrates on the story of Hans Frederich as much as it goes into the story of Jenny Reynolds.  It also covers a very much wider time span than the original book.

Several of my readers have asked me to publish a sequel to “Stranger to Her People”.  What they wanted to know, basically, is:
 ‘What happened to Jenny Reynolds?’
That story had been in my first outline and draft of the book and is interwoven into this edition.

I have no intention to publish this book and, because of the added and different chapters make the first book redundant in any way. The first book stands alone, a classic in its own right.

One could have a situation where the writer of a book is a clinical psychologist and the editor is a very brilliant, talented, religious investigative political journalist. The book, written by both could look very different to the original manuscript, but one would not negate the other in any way .

The reader is advised to read them both.



Some  new research has gone into the book, with information that was not included in the original book. An example of this is Aktion T4  which trained the Nazis for the later Operation Reinhard, under Heindrich Himmler. They were operating the later Death and Extermination Camps which had been established with the one goal of mass ‘euthanasia’ , mass murder. This  included Treblinka , Sorbibor and Belzec.


“Hitler instructed his personal physician  to evaluate a family's petition for the "mercy killing" of their blind, physically and developmentally disabled infant boy. The boy was eventually killed in July 1939.. but Hitler took it further and instructed the doctor to do the same thing in similar cases. The secret order to start the registration of ill children, took place on 18 August 1939, three weeks after the murder of the boy. Hitler wanted to kill those whom he judged to be ‘ unworthy of life.’   Among other things they were blocking much needed hospital beds. This view was held by many doctors and medical staff.”

……………………………“ And there were centers,” said John,  “just like concentration camps but these centers were beautiful, large mansions. Some looked like castles.” He had not been able to keep the tears from coming into his eyes, neither had Hans.

 “At first patients were killed by lethal injection, the method established for killing children, This proved to be expensive and slow. Hitler himself recommended that carbon monoxide gas be used which was seen as a ‘major advance in medical history’ The first gassings took place at  Brandenburg   Euthanasia Centre in January 1940. “

“Medical History,” said Hans, shocked.  “That was genocide history !”

“Once the efficacy of this method was established, it became standardized and was instituted at a number of centers across Germany. Tens of thousands died in these centers As well as killing patients from mental homes, nursing homes and sanatoria, these centers were also used to kill prisoners transferred from concentration camps in Germany and Austria.”
                           

“Patients were transferred from their institutions to the killing centers in  busses, busses with gray, painted windows, operated by teams of SS men wearing white coats to give an air of medical authenticity. This was called the Community Patients Transports Service. The patients were quickly moved around so that they could not be traced. Families were sent letters explaining that owing to wartime regulations it would not be possible to visit relatives in these centers.

“Most of these patients were killed within 24 hours of arriving at the centers, and their bodies cremated.  Death certificates were prepared, giving  false but plausible causes of death, and sent to the families along with an urn of ashes (random ashes, since the victims were cremated en masse).”

……………….Everything connects, absolutely everything connects.”
“How” asked Hans?
“The one arose from the other,” said John.
“What do you mean,” asked Hans, he himself knowing only a little.
“Well, when I was researching this I kept on connecting with something else,  Operation Reinhard, The Final Solution to the Jewish Problem.”
“What do you mean,” whispered Hans”

“OK, lets take the people,” said John.
“When I started to research the actual Nazi individuals involved I saw the terrifying link between Aktion T4 and Sobibor. It was almost as if one had been a preparation for the other.


With Special Thanks to:  Rabbi Isadore Rubenstein,
     Division of Informal Jewish Education.
     S.A. Board of Jewish Education, who shared his experiences, many of which have been used in this book

 On "The March of the Living".










 





STRANGER TO HER PEOPLE

                                                  





 Jenny stopped outside a door and checked the paper she held in her hand. It was the same address. She cau­tiously opened the door and looked around. Nothing seemed to be going on. She had expected to see a lighted hall but found only a darkened doorway. She looked down at the paper to double check the address, and a door at the end of the hallway suddenly opened. A young man stepped out. He looked no older than seventeen, with blond hair clipped short at the sides, wearing jackboots and a bomber jacket adorned with an SS emblem. He looked Jenny over before nodding his head and heading towards the front door.
Pulling together all her courage, Jenny drew in a deep breath and walked through the door. She found herself, unnoticed, in a fairly large hall and quickly slipped into a seat in a row near the back. Someone was making a rousing speech in German, but Jenny could not quite understand it. She looked around. At the back of the speaker on the stage were three ceiling-to-floor narrow banners of bright red. In the centre of each was a white circle, and in the centre of each circle was a black swastika.
Jenny shivered as she gazed around at the people. It was the faces of the younger people that caught her atten­tion, the faces of the young neo-Nazis and skinheads. Their faces were permeated with hatred. Faces, which otherwise would have been good-looking, were transformed into portraits of cruelty and ugliness.
She remembered what she had heard from one of her fellow university lecturers about the simple German or   Polish or Ukrainian soldier who had taken part in the practical aspects of the killing and cruelty. After the war, they had come home unable to forget their taste for blood, their sadism smouldering under the ashes of defeat to arise in white fury at any opportunity. Violence and hatred had been brought into their homes and in fact had never left them. Here was the outcome. Here was the younger gen­eration, so filled with burning hate that nothing was sacred to them.
Jenny trembled. Here she was, a Jew, in a hall filled with Nazis. She took refuge in the fact that they would never suspect she was Jewish. No one in this country knew, not even her uncle. She was quite safe.
Another speaker took the podium and began to speak about a glorious, united Germany. His presentation was powerful and dynamic, yet elementary enough for Jenny to understand.
"All you have to do to see what is wrong with Germany today is to come out of the railroad station of any big city and look at the crowds on the streets," he began. "Some­times you wonder if there are any Germans left at all. Everything is in foreign hands."
Jenny noticed the people around her nodding their heads vigorously in assent.
"We want Germany in German hands!" the speaker shouted, raising a clenched fist in the air. "This is our country. This is our land. This is Aryan land. We will not hand it over to foreigners.
“ We will not surrender to the Turks or the Vietnamese or the Jews. Germany has become the crown colony of Judas, but we will snatch it back. This is the hallowed soil which we have sanctified with our blood, our loyalty and our obedience. This is the land of our noble ancestors, those courageous warriors to whom these forests and mountains gave birth. We will fight for this land. Germany is ours!" His voice rose in excitement, then modulated down to a whisper and then rose again. The crowd was mesmerized.


STRANGER TO HER PEOPLE

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"What's going on?" Mr. Taub asked.
 "Nothing very serious," Rabbi Davis replied. "It looks like we're going to have a longer stopover in Zurich than expected. The plane carrying the American group we're supposed to hook up with has engine trouble. The plane will apparently be delayed for several hours. We're going to have to wait for them before continuing on to Denmark. Accommodations are going to be provided for the eight hours in a downtown hotel."
Most of the people groaned.
     "Why can't they just meet us in Denmark?" asked a middle-aged woman with bleached blond hair.
"Don't be silly, Myra," responded the man next to her.

"This actually may work out better for me," Jenny whispered to Dina. "I can contact my aunt now. Maybe I can even visit her."
      "That's great," Dina said. "If you go, I'll save a bed in my hotel room for when you come back."

Jenny Reynolds, a young South African convert to Judaism, was full of eager anticipation as she set out from Johannesburg on the "March of the Living" tour. Over the next few weeks, as part of an organized groups of thousands of holocaust survivors and their families, she would visit the scenes of the German destruction of European Jewry during the Second World War. It promised to be a profound intellectual and emotional experience, an experience that would be burned into her memory for the rest of her life. Her pilgrimage to the scenes of the holocaust does indeed become an experience that she would never forget, but in a very unexpected way. During an unscheduled overnight stopover in Switzerland, Jenny is shocked to discover that there may be a dark secret buried in her family's past 
This is the original version of Stranger to her People, edited and published by CIS
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  But there is nothing here. There's nothing left. Can this be Treblinka?" Dina gazed about at the green trees and lush grass. The she looked to the right and left of her at the thousands of marchers, all in blue jackets, like a living stream pouring across the once deadly land.
       "It was destroyed," Jenny explained. "The Germans destroyed it themselves in 1943. They didn't want anyone ever to find out about it. Even when it was in existence, no planes were allowed to fly over it, no unauthorized person was allowed near it." She looked around in amazement. "Now, there is nothing."
       Across the lawns were concrete slabs marking the path of the train lines. Now it was an attractive little station with   flowers in neat window boxes, sixty miles northwest of Warsaw. This was the other end of the train lines they had seen in Warsaw.
Jenny looked at it, remembering what she had read. This is where the trains arrived, the trains that brought Jews from Poland, Russia, Czechoslovakia, Germany, Bul­garia and Greece. Three to four trains arrived daily, sixty cars in each train, eighty to a hundred and fifty prisoners in each car. For hours, sometimes days, these trains stood on sidetracks to allow other transports to pass, while inside the passengers were dying of hunger and thirst.
From the moment the trains stopped, the doors were pulled open and the victims were roughly pulled out and beaten. Treblinka prided itself on the efficiency and speed with which it fulfilled its task of extermination. Men and women were quickly separated and families broken up. They were forced to undress and bring their clothing to a large pile. There they were given string to tie their shoes together to assist the sorters at a later stage. The women's hair was cut off and glasses, teeth, etc., were removed and collected.

Naked and barefoot, regardless of the weather, they would be forced along the "Pathway to Heaven," bitten and torn by wild dogs, whipped and beaten by the guards lining the one hundred-and-fifty-yard path. This path led to the gas chambers.
With Special Thanks to:
    Rabbi Isadore Rubenstein,
    Division of Informal Jewish Education.
    S.A. Board of Jewish Education..
    - who shared his experiences on
      "The March of the Living".



Wednesday, June 25, 2014

THE ORIGINAL - HOW TO TURN YOUR SNAKES INTO LADDERS


 
The Original: 'How to Turn Your Snakes into Ladders'
Authored by Dr. Ruth VN Benjamin PhD 



“How to Turn Your Snakes into Ladders” is a practical guide, operating at many levels. Its aim is to give the reader both insights and tools to live life at a more optimal and fulfilling level……This book contains the result of many years of accumulated experience and wisdom. This is a valuable and practical self-help resource that should assist people …..in a humorous and insightful manner.”  

(Dr. Michael Berk. Associate Professor . Dept. of Psychiatry. University of the Witwatersrand. Johannesburg. S.A.)
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Just a taste……..

We are overhearing a conversation between two sophisticated, attractive young women…..

Sarah and Leah are at the airport, when suddenly Leah freezes. A young woman with three children, looking sur­prisingly like Leah, has entered the departure lounge.
Sarah follows the direction of her friend's gaze. "Who's that?" she asks.
"Oh, a cousin of mine," says Leah in a rather cold voice. "The daughter of my father's brother."
"No," she says sharply as Sarah starts to call, "don't call her. We don't speak to each other. We have nothing to do with that side of the family."
Sarah sits down, looking confused. "Her children look the same age as your children. They could be such good friends."

“`Actually, I don't know how old they are," says Leah, annoyed. "I don't think I even know their names."
"But what does your father say about this?" Sarah asks curiously.
"It's my father and his brother who haven't spoken in years - decades - so the family has no contact."

"What happened?" asks Sarah. "It must be some­thing really dreadful."

"I'm not sure exactly," says Leah.
"Didn't you ask him?"
"Of course I did," says Leah, "but he doesn't seem to be sure of it himself. Maybe he's forgotten. We just know  we must have nothing to do with that side of the family."
"She looks like you," says Sarah. "Why don't you just go over and talk to her?"

We are familiar with stories of brothers kept apart because of the Holocaust or the KGB, of families separated for many years and don't even know the names and ages of one another's children. But this time the brothers themselves have created the distance through resentment and bitterness. They have even forgotten what the initial breach was about.

In South Africa, we call this a fariebel. Everyone knows what a fariebel is. This person won't speak to that person and that person will have nothing to do with this person, and these fariebels can go on for years, splitting families and for­mer friends. Sadly, when someone is making a simchah, she has to find out who is having  a fariebel with whom so as not to seat them near each other.


TABLE OF CONTENTS
1
Snakes and Ladders
2
Return Tripping
3
Fantasy: Our Other Side
4
Sifting the Past for Anger
5
Coping with Stress and Tension
6
Burnout
7
Stress and Tension within the Home
8
The Black Depressive Trip
9
Guilt Trips
10
The Victim
11
Negative Words
12
Regaining an identity
13
Disability- A unique Opportunity
14
The Psychology of the Jew
15
Snakes and Ladders Again
16
Bibliography

 
How to Turn Your Snakes into Ladders, was originally published by Targum Press in 1999.  It was then republished by myself on an independent publishing platform.
Two editions were published. One stuck exactly to the original and the second was lightly edited and enlarged.




And, for a further taste,  I quote a few paragraphs which comes under the heading of 

SPIRITUAL BURNOUT

The yetzer hara uses certain psychological traps to interfere with your service of Hashem. These traps can cool down your enthusiasm, block your emotions, and, in the ex­treme, cause spiritual burnout.
 By looking at and working with these traps we can find ways to emerge refreshed and with renewed inspiration.

The first trap plays on low self-esteem. if the yetzer hara can convince you you're not important, you surely won't see your davening as important. An honest rethinking of the value of each word of Torah and davening uttered by a Jew­ any Jew - may bring back enthusiasm and warmth.

Another trap the yetzer hara uses is to keep us rushing and unable to relax.

We daven at a tremendous speed and our message is, strangely enough, "Please, Hashem, don't bother me. I am busy davening. Don't interrupt me with feel­ings of love or devotion or closeness to You. I have to get this davening over with." Now, although this might sound totally absurd, it has more than a ring of truth.

As I mentioned before, it's important to try to live in the here and now, not ten minutes ahead of yourself, your mind always on what you have to do next.

Living ahead of your­self means that while you are davening you're thinking about what to eat for breakfast. While you are eating break­fast you think about the drive to work. On the way to work you are picturing what's going on at work.

People have to learn to stop and be exactly where they are.

When you are eating, eat; when you're davening, daven. In this way time will slow down and not rush past irretriev­ably. In fact, you will find you have more time than you ever imagined……

It continues….